Friday, September 20, 2013

In a moment...in the twinkling of an eye

September 20, 2013

“Back in the day” I kept my calendar in a leather-bound book. It also had pages for important medical information, addresses of friends, and even pockets for business cards, stamps and coins. I remember this clearly as I recently resurrected this relic of by-gone days.  Despite the passage of time I can still review Tom’s medical issues and the dates on which we visited certain doctors (as well as my personal information).  The first edition had a 1” center ring but I later expanded to one with a 2” center ring…which eventually became ponderous for carrying on a daily basis.

With the advancing complexity of Tom’s health, I opted to “upgrade” to electronics. My choice was a Tungsten Palm.  I thought I’d achieved nirvana. I could track all the appointments in color coding, record information from each doctor in his medical team and backup the data with my desktop computer.  Additionally it could accommodate an extensive address book and so, over time, I input not only the doctors’ addresses and phone numbers but also my friends’ names, and birthdates.  The Palm was even able to differentiate between my medical, professional and personal addresses.

The next transition occurred when cell phones were no longer just about making and receiving calls—you could take pictures with them and store appointments in them (and even get reminder alarms).  Oh yes, and you can store your friends addresses and e-mail addresses there too. It doesn’t “remember” as much data nor sort it with the same agility but, oh my! –it’s convenient, light weight and easy to slip into pocket or purse.

Which brings me to my current contemplation: I recently rediscovered my Palm and decided to reactivate it.  Of course with the household transitions I’ve lost the charging and syncing cables but a visit to e-bay produced replacements for those. Then a down-
load of the software program…check.  Finally, insert the USB cable and press “go”. L
Ahh…of course it is not that simple. In 2007, when the Palm was last backed up, the hardware was running Windows 98 (or it’s predecessor) and we are 2 generations of hardware beyond that.

The ultimate piece of this tale is that last night when I pressed the power button, the Palm was stone-cold dead.  That’s when I discovered a NEW “alphabet” term: SDS (Sudden Death Syndrome). Instantly gone is all of the stored data-- all of the names and telephone numbers, all of the birthdates and addresses, my crossword puzzles, my electronic copy of some book that came pre-loaded (but provided distraction during lengthy waits).  Gone! …in the twinkling of an eye.   

Now from 2007 until just recently this “toy” was in a box somewhere so there is a self-evident response to the question: Do I NEED this?  Obviously not. Either those names have morphed onto another electronic list or the people have cycled out of my daily life.
But really?!? I am experiencing a feeling of loss!  I want it BACK!

Upon processing, I imagine I’ll find several relevant “life lessons” in this experience. I awoke this morning excited to see what comment awaited me in my morning devotional. I was sure it would be pertinent.  

   TRY TO SEE THINGS more and more from My perspective. Let the Light of My Presence so fully fill your mind that you view the world through Me.  When little things don’t go as you had hoped, look to Me lightheartedly and say, “Oh, well.” This simple discipline can protect you from being burdened with an accumulation of petty cares and frustrations.  If you practice this diligently, you will make a life-changing discovery. You realize that most of the things that worry you are not important.


Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Ruth's Ramblings~



SO grateful for the return of cool(ER) temperatures...and energy.  Have been making some progress on my “to do” list of projects. Trying to follow my friend's suggestion and focus on one task per day to reduce the overwhelming dimension of my "elephant".  Last week it felt like the only room not filled with endless clutter was the tiny hall bathroom. (In there a full wastebasket is overload!)  

Replaced the living/dining room sheers after the window-washer’s visit (they were unbelievably sun-faded), and rehung laundered kitchen valences. The house definitely looks different without window coverings. I enjoyed a few days of “openness” without covering the windows that overlook my lanai—brought some of the greenness inside!

Plants in the backyard are now showing signs of returning to life (YAY!)...and only current magazines are on the trunk in the family room; shredded a "ton" of junk mail yesterday (and sent a bundle of “read” magazines to Arizona with Anna!) 

Speaking of magazines:  Mary Kay has a 2-page full-color ad in the October issue of Good Housekeeping and also in Seventeen.  Seventeen magazine is seeking to show that Mary Kay “isn’t your grandmothers makeup” anymore with a trendy display of “Mary Kay @ Play” products.  To become “experienced” with the product line, I tried the baked eye-shadow on Monday. I really can’t see without my glasses so it’s rather like applying product by Braille and then putting my glasses back on for evaluation. Product went on easily…  Probably need a lighter hand in application and some time to become accustomed to the new look. I’m a long way past 17!

Was a delight to spend a bit of time with my Arizona family. Derek and Anna brought their camper to San Clemente for a long weekend. Chris and Melissa drove separately. Saturday night we met at The Crab Shack to celebrate birthdays. Melissa’s actually was on the 14th and Anna’s will be Thursday (19th). Then I brought Nina & Lexxie home for an overnight.  Mary Lou went with me to return them on Sunday morning.


My sister Virginia often phones me on Thursday morning (about 6 am my time) as she is on her way to work.  THIS week she’ll be on a plane coming to visit!!!  She should be here for lunch tomorrow and stay through Sunday afternoon.  Of course she’s looking forward to some beach time so I’m glad our temps haven’t dropped too much.  The past couple of mornings have been “foggy” but it clears by 10’ish.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

9-11



Has it been "ONLY" 12 years? I clearly remember the morning we refer to as 9-11..catching the overnight news on TV while tying on my shoes for a walk in our Mesa AZ neighborhood in the dawning light and morning cool.  The light was "yellow" and the trees were green; the sprinklers were watering the lawn across the street.

Actually I think Tom was still going to work then because it seems the house was otherwise empty. It's pretty astounding to consider all the changes in my life since then. I've morphed from being an efficient "take-charge" 50-something office manager to being a somewhat disoriented retired "older" person. 

Have you ever read a biography and observed the "ups and downs" over the course of the subject's life-span?  Within maybe a 10 year span, the fortune of life does change. I try to think about that when I'm sad...that in the normal course of things, life will bring "good" again. So, in my reflection on this past 12 years I have gone from  full-time employment to part-time support staff to retirement. I have downsized my home and many of my memories are still packed in boxes in storage. I have transitioned through the "in sickness and in health" of our wedding vows; and come out a widow. 

I wonder what life in the next decade will bring?  Will I be looking back and thinking about how good life was in 2013?





Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Amazing Thoughts

September 10, 2013

Excerpt from a devotional book my sister gave me last year: Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young:

ACCEPT EACH DAY exactly as it comes to you.  By that I mean not only the circumstances of your day but also the condition of your body. Your assignment is to trust Me absolutely, resting in My sovereignty and faithfulness.On some days, your circumstances and your physical condition feel out of balance. The demands on you seem far greater than your strength. Days like that present a choice between two alternatives—giving up or relying on Me. Even if you wrongly choose the first alternative, I will not reject you. You can turn to Me at any point, and I will help you crawl out of the mire of discouragement. I will infuse My strength into you moment by moment, giving you all that you need for this day. Trust Me, by relying on My empowering Presence.
Psalm 42:5  Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

 I don't believe in Chinese cookie fortunes or rely on the accuracy of astrological forecasts, but it is AMAZING how God can direct our thoughts.  This SO meets me where I am this week.